9:35am 10/17/05 - Stella called and said we can visit Katie in person Thursday 10/20/05 at CPS building in Houston 4-6 pm or visit on phone 5 to 6 pm for us and 6 to 6:30PM for the boys. [Again why split the family visitation up into parents and boys separately? This is very anti-family.] Need to let Stella know by tomorrow at 3pm what we are going to do. They need to know 24 hours in advance if we are going to cancel or if any changes by Wednesday. I went over it with Stella twice to make sure everything was right. [Stella schedules visits she knows we cannot possibly make. My boys have after school programs till 6:30pm on Thursday, my husband works cows on Thursdays. Its a 9 hour trip to Houston and back and a 2 hour visit makes a 11 hour day and we would have to take the kids out of school a day to visit Katie and they have already missed too many days due to CPS dental appointments and screw ups. And I have no one to work for me. That is why we requested a visit on the last two Sundays. ] Not working with us to see that we can visit Katie is certainly not in the best interest of Katie.
Plus Katie is scheduled for a PET scan on that Thursday too. Her body emits harmful radiation for a day afterwards and she can't be near people. There is no schedule and its always a last minute thing. We want to visit and do things with Katie, not be stuck in a hospital room or CPS office. How inconsiderate! The boys haven't seen Katie in over two months, Edward over a month, and its been two weeks since I saw her. The boys especially James (3) are slowly forgetting her because its been so long now, nearly 5 months, that she has been gone. That isn't right.
[Edward comments: Classic Brainwashing -Now after forcing Katie to give in to their treatments they start restoring visits and showing her "see we let you visit as we said we would." To use and abuse emotionally a child that way is straight from the pits of hell. I would like to see a grand jury sit to indict CPS for child abuse.]
I asked about Katie if she was doing okay. Stella said they called last Thursday and Katie wanted a haircut. They pulled a fast one with Stella. She tells me the foster mom took Katie shopping and they were having a good time. Foster mom bought Katie a pair of jeans to wear. Boy did it hurt to be told this. Thats my job! I don't know why this hurt so much. [sobs]
They, the foster mom and Katie, were planning stuff for Halloween. I never felt so hurt and lost. She is my daughter and I want to do those things with her. I feel that CPS is purposely doing this so Katie won't miss us anymore and won't need us anymore. They are slowly taking her out of our lives. [sobs]
I am so tired. I used to look forward for tomorrow. Now I dread each day, not knowing what tomorrow will bring me. I'm so tired of fighting for the right to see or talk to my daughter. Just so tired of reasoning with everyone. [they don't even listen or try to cooperate with us, its their way or nothing] CPS sure drains you and takes your will power away from you. They give you no hope or future. I believe they have no intention of ever returning her to us. [crying]